
Marie’s Blog

Deconstructing YWAM: The Appeal, The Harm, and The Road to Unlearning
Youth With A Mission (YWAM) sells itself as a movement of passionate young Christians changing the world. But beneath the inspiring testimonials and global outreach lies a darker reality—one of unchecked authority, emotional manipulation, and spiritual abuse. For many, YWAM is less about serving others and more about sustaining a high-control religious pipeline that prioritizes conversion over real impact. This post critically examines YWAM’s structure, its issues with leadership, purity culture, financial exploitation, and the cult-like dynamics that leave so many former members grappling with doubt, disillusionment, and the long road to healing.
The Allure of Parentless Gods: Why Mythology Loves Figures Without Origins
Across cultures, mythological figures without parents captivate us. From Athena springing fully formed from Zeus’ head to Jesus’ divine conception, these beings exist outside of the normal cycle of birth, lineage, and human limitation. They symbolize autonomy, transcendence, and the breaking of tradition—embodying the fantasy of being entirely self-made or chosen by the divine. But why are we so obsessed with them? This post explores the deeper psychological, spiritual, and cultural reasons why figures without a mother or father hold such power in our collective imagination.
Sexual Confidence Without Shame: Learning, Exploring, and Letting Go of Fear
The fear of being exposed as a “sexual fool” is real—because we’re taught that sexuality is something we should just know how to do. But here’s the truth: no one is born a master of sex or kissing. It’s a learned skill, built through connection, curiosity, and experience. The pressure to be perfect in bed is just another layer of shame, making something meant for pleasure and intimacy feel like a performance. This post is your permission slip to drop the fear, embrace the awkwardness, and redefine what it means to be “good at sex”—not as a skill, but as an evolving journey of self-expression and connection.
How You Deserved to Be Parented—And How to Give That to Yourself Now
Every child deserves to grow up feeling safe, valued, and unconditionally loved—but not everyone got that. If you’re asking yourself, How did I deserve to be parented? you’re already doing something powerful: naming what you needed and didn’t receive. This reflection isn’t just about grief; it’s about clarity. It’s about recognizing that you still deserve those things—safety, love, respect, and space to grow—even now. Healing means learning to give yourself what should have always been yours. It’s not too late. You deserved better then, and you deserve better now.
Reclaiming Sexuality After Religious Trauma: A Guide to Unlearning and Rediscovery
Unlearning fear, shame, and rigid beliefs around sexuality is no small task, but it’s possible. If you grew up in an environment where sexuality was controlled, feared, or labeled as sinful, it’s natural to feel lost—or even afraid—when trying to reconnect with your body and desires. But here’s the truth: your body is yours, pleasure is not a sin, and sexuality is not something you need permission for. This guide is about stepping into self-ownership, at your own pace, on your own terms. Healing is possible. Desire is not gone. And you are allowed to reclaim what was always yours.
Dissociation vs. Depersonalization/Derealization: What’s the Difference?
If you’ve ever felt disconnected from yourself or reality, you might have wondered: Am I dissociating? Is this depersonalization or derealization (DP/DR)? While these terms are related, they aren’t interchangeable. Dissociation is a broad category that includes many ways the mind disconnects—from memory gaps to emotional numbing—while DP/DR specifically refers to the eerie sensation of feeling unreal or detached from your own body or surroundings.
What makes it even trickier? If your sense of self has always felt fractured, you might not even realize it until you learn what a cohesive self is supposed to feel like. It’s like trying to understand water while you’re swimming in it—you don’t see it until something forces you to step back and question it. This post breaks down the differences between dissociation and DP/DR, helping you recognize what’s happening and why awareness is the first step toward grounding yourself again.
Intelligence Isn’t the Villain: Calling Out the ‘Sadness Is Caused by Understanding’ Cop-Out.
We’ve all heard it—those tired phrases that try to turn awareness into a curse. “Sadness is caused by intelligence.” “Ignorance is bliss.” These ideas sound profound until you actually think about them. They paint knowledge as a burden and avoidance as a form of happiness, conveniently skipping over the fact that ignorance has consequences and understanding can lead to more than just despair.
This post is a pushback against that kind of defeatist thinking. Intelligence doesn’t inherently lead to sadness—it’s how we engage with what we know that matters. Awareness doesn’t have to be a weight; it can be fuel. Let’s stop romanticizing avoidance and start talking about what we do with what we understand.
Emotions Unveiled: Navigating the Mystery and Predictability of Human Feelings
Emotions are a profound paradox—predictable in their triggers yet deeply mysterious in their essence. Discover how core emotions like joy and sadness function as signals, guides, and the texture of our human experience. Explore the patterns and complexities that make emotions both universal and uniquely ours.
How Accurate Are the Inside Out Movies to Human Emotions?
Pixar's Inside Out offers a colorful take on our emotional lives, blending entertainment with insights into human psychology. But how close is it to reality? Dive into the science behind core emotions, memory, and identity to explore what the movie gets right—and where it simplifies our complexity.
Modern Survival Guide: Exiting the Cult Bunker and Embracing Life's Chaos
Navigating the modern world after exiting a rigid belief system is messy but liberating. From understanding technology and capitalism to building relationships and unlearning biases, this guide is your crash course in making sense of today’s chaotic yet exhilarating existence.