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Navigating Existential Shock: Embracing the Chaos of Consciousness

Explore the intense journey of grappling with existential shock and the chaotic stream of consciousness that often accompanies deep self-reflection. This blog delves into the personal experiences of wrestling with profound questions about reality, identity, and the struggle to find clarity amid confusion.

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Alone in My Space: Navigating the Shadows of Freedom and Stability

Today hit harder than expected. After moving into my own home, I thought I'd find peace in the stability and freedom, but instead, I'm confronting deep-seated fears of death and abandonment. It's a paradoxical longing for connection against a backdrop of self-isolation. Here's how I'm learning to sit with these feelings without turning away.

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Unwanted Sexual Comments on Tinder: Normal or a Red Flag?

Navigating online dating can be tricky, especially when unsolicited sexual comments make you feel unsafe. Is this common Tinder behavior, or is it a sign to steer clear? Here’s how to recognize red flags, set boundaries, and trust your instincts when swiping.

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Owning a Home, Facing My Fears: The Unexpected Anxiety of Autonomy

Buying a house on my own was supposed to feel empowering, but instead, it stirred a mix of pride, fear, and existential dread. As I navigate the weight of true autonomy, I find myself questioning what it means to be "grown-up" and why letting my guard down feels so terrifying.

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Staring into the Abyss: When the Rawness of Being Alive Feels Like Too Much

Being fully present can feel unbearable—like standing at the edge of something too vast to comprehend. Why does existence feel so intense? Why does feeling alive sometimes feel horrifying? This post explores the raw experience of presence, the fear of losing control, and the tension between seeking answers and surrendering to the mystery.

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Why Didn’t I Feel Anything? Exploring Emotional Distance and the Inner Child

I recently watched a documentary about Mr. Rogers and was struck by his deep understanding of child psychology. It made me wonder why I didn’t feel strong emotions about my inner child or the children featured in the film. Later, I watched a documentary about photographers capturing poverty, and again, I felt nothing. This made me question—why don’t I feel much about children? Am I missing something? Or is there something deeper at play? This reflection led me down a path of exploring emotional protection, empathy, and childhood disconnection.

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