I’ve spent years navigating a distorted reality, feeling like something was uniquely wrong with me. But now I see that it’s not wrong—my mind has been protecting me as I shifted, struggling to understand the layers of survival mode that have defined my life. It’s painful, this process of waking up, of confronting the false self I’ve buried so deeply.

There’s no simple fix for decades of dissociation. I wasn’t being stubborn or willful; I just didn’t have the resources or understanding to know what was happening inside me. Now, I’m slowly learning to stop gaslighting myself, learning that it’s okay to question everything I once believed, from religion to my own sense of identity.

What if there’s a way to live that’s not about masking, not about survival, but about being truly here, in my body? I’m starting to find out, and while it’s terrifying to let go, I know this discomfort is the path to something real.

In this post, I explore the reflections of my friends, family, and partners as they share their thoughts on my best qualities, strengths, and the impact I’ve had on their lives. Through these insights, common themes of bravery, empathy, authenticity, and personal growth emerge, offering a glimpse into how others view my journey. Join me as I unpack these responses and reflect on the meaningful ways our connections shape who we are.

In my recent emotional intelligence class and through a thoughtful exercise with friends, I discovered how people see me—creative, intelligent, compassionate, and courageous. Using Dr. Gpt's analysis, I could process these reflections and recognize recurring themes in how I impact those around me. From helping others navigate trauma to being a source of thought-provoking curiosity, I’ve gained deeper insight into my relationships and personal growth. This journey has left me reflecting on the power of authentic connection and self-awareness.

Ever wonder why some cats enjoy having their butt patted? My cat Noodle, a 5-year-old tuxedo, loves it! In this post, I dive into our playful conversation about Noodle’s quirky preference, exploring feline behavior and the reasons behind this funny and affectionate habit.